Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Ugh..
Great.. I feel like I keep getting blown off by the two guys I like -.- I like one more than the other as I said on here but yeah. Still. My point is that they bother me -.- Ugh.. gosh.. Idk what to do d: Ya know, giving someone this website is a way of showing them I trust them. This has some of my deepest thoughts on it. Things I couldn't ever admit to someone in person, or even really through text. Drives me insane sometimes. It's just who I am. I think about sooo many things then I won't say not a single thing that comes to mind. But when someone actually asks me what I'm thinking, my mind goes blank. I don't understand. I don't get myself. I just... don't know who I am. I know who I WANT to be... kind of... but I don't know how to get there. Right now, I am one of those people that has to be told what's wrong with me and things I do wrong so I can fix it. I can't handle compliments. It just... no. Compliments to me, are bad. I can comfort and give compliments all day long through texts, but I dont even know where to begin when it comes to helping someone in person or where they can hear my voice. See, take this thing I just wrote.. see how it changed topics so easily? I started off with talking about guys to comforting people in person/where they can hear me. It just... I don't know. I don't think everyone is like this. I just.. don't get it... Things don't make sense to me. Im always that one person different... either im the ONLY one that doesn't get it or im the ONLY one that does. Like.. it just.. doesn't connect with me. I need something.. anything.. to keep my mind straight. They just..don't work. Oh well.......
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Oh gosh d:
Okay..well..
I have no idea what the last thing I've talked about was. It's been close to 2 months since I've posted anything... whoops d: Ummmm.....
Color Guard is going okay. Not really sure if I wanna do it next year though.
I am Secretary for SkillsUSA and I am thinking about running for Regional officer..which means I have to talk in front of over 200 and some people d: Yikes d:
I went to Camp Dixie for Skills... greatest trip I've been on. Got in a canoe, played Skiiball? (however its spelled), raced go-karts, had section meetings (I was yellow, section D )Gosh it was so much fun. I woke up this morning feeling like (Gosh... I wish I was waking up to go to the lake and my section meetings)
School is going okay.. not my grade in Spanish 3, thats for sure d: It's so freakin bad its not even funny. Like.. it's the worst I've ever done in Spanish -.- I think its cause Im back with Mrs. Taylor teaching d: Umm... Oh yeah! School duuuh... My Schedule is:
First Semester
1st- US History Honors
2nd- Spanish 3
3rd- English 3 Honors
4th- Band
Second Semester
1st- Pre-Cal
2nd- Spanish 4
3rd- Personal Finanace (gonna change hopefully)
4th- Chemistry Honors
So yeah.. I had to do a lot of changing for it d: But it still works(:
Ummm..... I'm not with Silver anymore d: Im gonna be honest, I did like him, but things weren't gonna work cause I felt like I wasn't ever gonna see him and especially with me being busy with band. But now I'm having other guy issues with Emmanuel (known him since May) and Christopher(known since... August?) They are opposites but their opposites are things I like... make sense? Gosh.. I just.. idk... as of know, I feel like things would work better with Emmanuel and I...Idk why but I just do. I feel like things would last longer and be better in general with us. I kinda feel like he understands me more. I think about him a lot more to be honest. I could see things going places with him. I really could. And I don't mean the way I seen things with Bryan.. Bryan was more or less just a way to try and convince myself that it wasn't all my fault why things ended with Sergio. I needed some kind of healing and Bryan was it. But back to my point, I see things really going with Emmanuel.. like... after high school and if he doesn't go to college, then at least following me to where ever I go, or waiting for me.. then agian.. Ive heard the whole "I'll wait for you" thing before. But yeah.
I did get my license but I haven't got to drive by myself yet. 1) my mom won't let me and 2) I dont have a car -.- So yeah.. great right? No -.-
Well that's all I'm gonna post about for now.. I promise to try and update as soon as I can d: And more often as well. So yeah... thats all for now(:
~Whitney~
I have no idea what the last thing I've talked about was. It's been close to 2 months since I've posted anything... whoops d: Ummmm.....
Color Guard is going okay. Not really sure if I wanna do it next year though.
I am Secretary for SkillsUSA and I am thinking about running for Regional officer..which means I have to talk in front of over 200 and some people d: Yikes d:
I went to Camp Dixie for Skills... greatest trip I've been on. Got in a canoe, played Skiiball? (however its spelled), raced go-karts, had section meetings (I was yellow, section D )Gosh it was so much fun. I woke up this morning feeling like (Gosh... I wish I was waking up to go to the lake and my section meetings)
School is going okay.. not my grade in Spanish 3, thats for sure d: It's so freakin bad its not even funny. Like.. it's the worst I've ever done in Spanish -.- I think its cause Im back with Mrs. Taylor teaching d: Umm... Oh yeah! School duuuh... My Schedule is:
First Semester
1st- US History Honors
2nd- Spanish 3
3rd- English 3 Honors
4th- Band
Second Semester
1st- Pre-Cal
2nd- Spanish 4
3rd- Personal Finanace (gonna change hopefully)
4th- Chemistry Honors
So yeah.. I had to do a lot of changing for it d: But it still works(:
Ummm..... I'm not with Silver anymore d: Im gonna be honest, I did like him, but things weren't gonna work cause I felt like I wasn't ever gonna see him and especially with me being busy with band. But now I'm having other guy issues with Emmanuel (known him since May) and Christopher(known since... August?) They are opposites but their opposites are things I like... make sense? Gosh.. I just.. idk... as of know, I feel like things would work better with Emmanuel and I...Idk why but I just do. I feel like things would last longer and be better in general with us. I kinda feel like he understands me more. I think about him a lot more to be honest. I could see things going places with him. I really could. And I don't mean the way I seen things with Bryan.. Bryan was more or less just a way to try and convince myself that it wasn't all my fault why things ended with Sergio. I needed some kind of healing and Bryan was it. But back to my point, I see things really going with Emmanuel.. like... after high school and if he doesn't go to college, then at least following me to where ever I go, or waiting for me.. then agian.. Ive heard the whole "I'll wait for you" thing before. But yeah.
I did get my license but I haven't got to drive by myself yet. 1) my mom won't let me and 2) I dont have a car -.- So yeah.. great right? No -.-
Well that's all I'm gonna post about for now.. I promise to try and update as soon as I can d: And more often as well. So yeah... thats all for now(:
~Whitney~
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