11/20/14 10:20pm

Dear Me,
Okay soooo... yeah. I don't even really know what I wanna write about, just feel like writing. Um... its been a while. Like I feel like you've missed so much of my life lately just cause I haven't wrote anything. Well... I've been busy with band stuff. Yes! Band! I go to most practices and still like every football game (home & away) and all the competitions (he needed me for props)(I moved trees and help build the duckblind) and so its like I was part of it(: Well... kinda. That's the part that makes me slightly sad. I help with as much as I can but I'm not like... recognized as any authoritive figure & I have to rely on others to find out stuff & even though I've been there through pretty much everything except band/guard camp, I don't get a bar ( the thing you get after a letter for a letterman jacket). But, at the same time, I probably wouldn't want someone like me getting those things if I was in band & someone else was in my place. So yeah... it's really not all that important I suppose. Anyways, there is still a chance I'll get to guard through because Crotts (my band director) is more than likely doing winter band(: And it's all after school so I wont be missing anything. Even if I was, I could catch up. Amber said she's prolly gonna make me co-captain but I want to see if I can convince her to just let me be captain. I'll use the whole... it's my last year and it'll look really good on my transcript and such for college thing. Which is true buuuut... I really just wanna be a captain that way I could like... actually fix things dealing with set and posture and all that good stuff. So yeah. I need to like... bring home a flag & rifle or something and get back in the swing of things. I'm really excited(: Only thing I don't like is how many people want to tryout. I'm not sure if we're really bad orrrr everyone else just doesn't realize how hard it is. ANYWAYS. Blah. I was supposed to wash clothes & do my hair and yeah. Anyways. I'm gonna go now. Cause it's late. The next letter I will try to write about my relationship and college/future. Goodnight to the all and none who read the words I write.