11/19/14 8:04am Wednesday

Dear me,
Okay. Well. I'm back in school. Monday I just didn't feel like coming to first period then yesterday I just didn't want to come to school at all. I was really hoping not to have school today or at least a 2 hour delay. So yeah. It's really cold outside. It's like 17 degrees F annnnd yeah. I'm also fairly sleepy. Great. I just got assigned another reflection paper. I can handle this one MUCH better than I can that stupid one in Intro. to Soc. I'm so ready for these classes to be over. Sooo very much. Ugh. I really need to wake up. I'm really sleepy. Sleep would be amazing. And I feel sick to my stomach. No Bun In The Oven :o SLAVES. Yeah. They didn't wanna go back & it spread quickly through the south. Idek what I'm talking about. Yay. I only have class one day in each class next week. I got a $56,000 scholarship... It's to Lenior-Rhyne... And that's not even half. It's about $120,000 for all 4 years. So... yeah that helped me decide to NO. It's a nice oppurtunity but... I'm just not feeling it. Oh well. Anyways, I need to go. Maybe. I'll write later...bye!

~Whitney Ravit

11/16/14 Sunday 1:27pm

Dear Me,
Hey there. It's been a while since I've really had a chance to write. I've spent all my time doing band things or at Averie's (which is where I am now). He's outside helping his dad with putting up Christmas stuff. I may try to go homa a bit sooner than usual. I'm not home much anymore. I don't really like being at home, but I feel like I should spend more time there. Idk. Anyways. I would type this on my blog buuut I'm not for a few reasons: 1) I have other letters I need to post first. 2) I would have to type on my Chromebook & I don't want Yadkin County Schools seeing my blog and thinking I need to see the guidance counselor or something. and 3) I don't feel like typing. Soooo yeah! Oh. My. Goodness! Guess What!?! I got into..... The University of North Carolina @ Greensboro. Yaaaaaayyyy! So excited :D I'm probably going to be a Spartan next year :D I say probably b/c I'm not 100% sure I'm gonna go there next year buuuut I might. So yeah. Anyways. That's all for now. I may write more but I doubt it dx

~Whitney<3

10/22/14 8:03am (In Class)

To whom it may concern,
I really need to start writing this on my blog more, well.., technically I could since I'm in class and I ahve my handy dandy chrome book. Totally... <-- Did I spell that right? Oh well, I supposed it doesn't matter since no one reads any of this anyways. What's it matter even if everyone in the world read every single word I've ever written for the purpose of this boring, pathetic, and unimportant website I call a blog about my life? I haven't wrote hardly any happy in my life lately so really this whole thing is (mostly) biased towards the sad points in my life. Bleh. Sorry for my ranting. I'm not sure why some of my anger is coming out in the words I'm writing here. I don't really get angry. I guess I do a lot but I can't even control it when it bottles it up on its own. Yeah. Bad, I know, but like I said before: what's it matter? I can write/type what I want, when I want to.. right? Psht, who I have I even been talking to this whole time? Only on person really knows about this but we all know he doesn't look here anymore. I'm glad I didn't tell certain people about this because I feel like they would have used it against me. If this got to people at school... NO. I don't know why I do this stupid thing or posting this online. I guess so I don't lose it. I'm debating on if I want another journal. I suppose I really don't need one for the times I decide to randomly write like this or when I write online. Hm... I may do that. I could keep it with me and hide it in various places annnnnd yeah. Well... I suppose I should go and at least somewhat pay attention to whatever is we are doing in class. American History... yay... Bleh. Alrighty then well bye to the none and to the many who read the words I write.

10/02/14 8:39am (In Class)

Dear me,
So... I'm writing this on paper. Okay well... there's a lot I haven't said lately. I'll do part of it now then prolly more when I type this up. Okay so... remember the Christopher who wrote me a song and went to an academy? Well... we "dated." Yeah... stupid me went through yet another long distance relationship. Great. Things were wonderful at first... but then his phone broke. (Wow... just realized today would have been out 2 months). So there were days we didn't talk at all. It sucked. Well,,,we had plans of him coming for Christmas. It would have been his first Christmas cause his parentals didn't care about that. I was gonna buy him a tattoo, jacket, give him a ring, my grandma was making him a hat, and just... yeah. Well... he also sent me presents. And I opened them when I got home from school. Then that's when I broke down and started crying.... he got me a promise ring, Something I have wanted from every guy I have ever been with and HE got me one... the thing that gets me is that I only talked about it like once. It was...I can't... I didn't know how to deal with it. I was so close to going back to... you know. Wait... maybe you don't. I stopped painting with silver. There. Now. Okay so yeah. Anyways, he kept trying to get me to throw the ring away because he prayed over it that him and I would be together so he needed me to throw it away so he can move on. I told him I threw it away but I really didn't. I just couldn't make myself do it. I don't think I will ever be able to do that. I'll keep it with me for a while and eventually put it up. Anyways, he also got me a necklace from Kingdom Hearts and also from an Anime called Fairytale a necklace that the guy & girl wears and they like... go into each other. So...yeah. It was really pretty. I gave Angel the little blue heart and I kept the part the heart goes into. So...yeah. Umm... oh. He says we cant be friends because he needs to focus on school and all this. Oh and he was also already moved on by that night. So... yeah. I'm still gonna message him every now and then. So... yeah. Well class is almost over so I need to go. I may write more later or just type this up.
Thanks For Reading.