Pictures

Aww, this is cute! 

So me XD

Yesh, this makes me happy(:

I say all of these...every day..

Escape

I need to get away from here. I cant take it anymore. These bruises on my knuckles is a sign of what this place is doing to me. So is the holes in the walls. I'm just ready to get away. Days like this just make me want to run away. I need to get away. I need to scream.. I need to.. something. Getting me things doesn't make up for the things you put me through. Not at all. And you wonder why I was practically like a zombie around you for almost a week... It's the way I am. "Oh you should open up to me more" "Why dont you ever just say what you want" Because when I do all you do is judge me!!!
I say this with the hot tears staining my face... I'll be the happiest person ever when I can finally leave. And once I do, you won't see me much. I'd love to see how you do without me or anyone else you are always complaining about. How you always have to do everything yourself and how NO ONE helps you... ha.. just wait til you really drive everyone away from you and your alone.......

Yesh(:

Just for my cuddle buddy XD

Hahaha this is so me XD

Bahaha XD

Omg!! Defiantly what I'm gonna be do everytime I

start feeling down XD

Umm... paddle my legs and kick my arms? Is that how you do it? XD

Early/Late

Okay.. I'd really like to know how I am still awake O.o Its almost 4 in the morning!! WTF!?! Gosh dX And im kinda cold dX Well... Just wanted to write a quick little something on here(: Well later everyone ^.^

Cute

Hehe this is cute, I loved this..

Well everyone I am gonna start getting ready for bed now. Next Monday Ill be at a regional SkillsUSA meeting then  on April 24-26 I will be at the State SkillsUSA competition... oh yeah! I joined the Senior National BETA Club today cause I got asked to be in it(: Soo..Oh yeah! And I applied to a job at my favorite fast food place (even though I dont want to do fast food) Taco Bell :O Soo yeah... I think thats all I can really think of right now dX Weeellllll.....I'm gonna get some sleep now. So goodnight everyone :D

Dream Of Love

I know this is from a really random and funny cartoon show called Adventure Time.. but the first time I saw this I really thought I was gonna cry cause at the time, it described my relationship perfectly....

You

IDK

Today has felt like it has been an emotional rollercoaster dX I was all happy this morning, then was kinda down, then I didnt feel good at all! Then I was still down for a while. Then I was happy again.. then ever since then Ive just had on and off moments of downess.. like now dX I got a coolios lookin shirt today and also a new cup ^.^ So yeah(: I like both :D Weelll... I suppose thats all for now so byers(:

Random Pics

I will not be your father!!

My band name is the Blue Burrito XD

True

I could see me saying something like this XD

Bahaha XD

Psht, obviously dX

All the time :(

Tee hee hee, so me :D

Just for my cuddle buddy :D 

Down

Those days and nights you feel so down that all you want to do is crawl in a corner and just cry your whole night away. I...I don't know why I'm so down right now. I've only felt this down twice that I can remember.....once was because I was alone, I felt completely and utterly alone. I didn't have anyone to text to help me feel better..no one was home all day to help distract me from feeling like that. Then the other time...was when I thought I had lost everything.. Cause when I still had this something, I felt like even if I lost everything else, I'd be alright cause I'd still have that thing. But then one day I lost it and.. I almost felt like I was dying.. like I was suffocating. And the first time when I was alone, I could kind of use that something but it wasn't responding. Too busy. And now.. something else is preventing me from using that thing at all..When it's probably the one thing that could help me. That has always been able to help me..no matter what it was... I dont know what to do. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep every time I feel down so I dont want to sleep... but its the only thing that seems to help until morning... when I put all my feelings away because then I'd be letting other people see how I really am...and I can't let them in. I...don't want to let anyone else in. It hurts too much when they let you down...sorry for being such a downer. I guess I'll try to sleep.. maybe I'll stop crying soon.....

:/

All the time >.<

Her

I used to feel like this..

Valentines :/

Well tomorrow is Valentine's Day..kinda down about it though. dX It's not the being single part that bothers me, it's just the.. watching every one else be all lovey dovey and Im just sitting there like... I love my iPod.... Soo yeah.. I really wish I had a bf that went to my school and he got me one of those HUGE stuffed bears (needs to be a panda) and I would gladly carry it with me(: Well..hmmm.. I think I'd actually rather have a little one that I could like carry in my bag and sit on my desk and things like that.. So yeahhh... not really a fan of Valentines Day.... I dont ever want to get married on Valentine's Day. My dad did twice and BOTH of his marriages have ended dX So yeah.. don't really wanna take that chance dX Well yeah..not exactly looking forward to Valentine's Day tomorrow at school being that lovey doveyness.. wellll... guess I will write more later. Later everyone dX

Oh wait, it makes me happy getting letters from colleges(: I have bunches of emails and like 12 letters :D Soo yayy(: You know, there was a time when I was really not liking school and wanted to drop out but now.. I think I will really try to stick with it. I have no idea what I want to do though.. I went from photographer, to Forensic Scientist, to Owning a bar, to Im not sure what dX I think I will defiantly do something with Spanish..I'm just not sure yet. If I get good enough then maybe I could be like an interpreter or something..maybe even a teacher :O That would be okayish I guess dX Well.. guess I shall go now. Later dX

Bideo 3 :D

Classes..

Okay.. um.. I had something I was gonna write about but then this cutie *cough*Jamesiie*cough* texted me and I got all distracted dX


Oh yeah! I remember now! Okay.. here are the classes I signed up for..

• Chemistry Honors
• Pre-Calculus (counts as an honors class)
• U.S History Honors
• English 3 Honors
• Spanish 3
• Spanish 4
• Band (For color guard)
• Personal Finance 
• Foods 1 as an Alternate if I can't get in personal finance dX 

Song(:

Okay I know I was talking about that other song a few posts ago but I have found an even better thing. If my husband sang this to me on my wedding day.... wow... <3

Hi there(:

Yayy(: Alright, just got home from the beach and I had a fairly good time ^.^ Buuuut guess what!?!?! I have been put in charge of finding us a house at the beach :D Yay! So thats what I'm gonna do(: Like.. we are gonna try to get a big house and I can help out with bills when I get a job. I dont think getting a job would be too hard because its in the off season (As in not hot and not many people visit the beach this time of the year) And soo yeah dX Then I'd have it when things got busy in the Summer time :D Which would be freakin awesomes! Get off work then go swim in the ocean? Oh yeah :D Just for Jamesiie: Think of all the boobies!! ;D Haha(: Sooo yeah.. thats what I am gonna do now, look up houses :D So.. yea...Well.. let ya know later how my search goes :D

Nah

I would just let her have him, cause if he cared for me then he wouldnt pay her any attention anyways(:

Just The Way You Are(:

If my boyfriend sang this to me.. wow <3

Saddened ;(

I have been saddened today :( So I went to update my laptop last night by leaving it plugged up to my computer.. well apprently the laptop died last night and I guess cancelled the download. Cause this morning when I went to see the new update, I had to RESTORE my iPod... I lost everything... All my pictures are gone :,( That makes me really sad....


Anyways, I might be going to the beach early in the morning and like driving the entire 4 hours there :D Omg! I really really REALLY wanna go! Then I can go to Karma (Teen night club!!) I really wanted to go last time but my mom said no dX Anyways.. I love you!!! O.o Um.. I honestly dont know who that was to.. it was toooooo....hmm..... pizza and peaches and raspberries.. yesh[:

Oreos(:

Awww <3 I want this with a guy[:

Cutieness!

Omg! He did a hair flip! Annnnd looked at the camera!! Yayyyy!!! EVERYONE GO LOOK AT JAMESIIES LATEST VIDEO!! RIGHT NOW!!

Jamesiie's recently amazing video!!!

Gosh!! Such a cutie ;D And he did the face angle ;D Thanks hottie :D

Bleh..

Okay.. well we got our class registration papers today..annd wow.. I am gonna be CRAZY busy next year dX The classes I'll be taking..

Chemistry Honors
English 3 Honors
U.S History Honors
Either Pre-Calculus or Advanced functions (for math..pre-cal counts as a honors class)
Spanish 3
Spanish 4
Band (for Color Guard that im gonna try out for again)
And then like.. Personal Finance orrr Foods 1 orrr some other elective..I want to do something with like business cause thats gonna be one of my majors in college dX


So yeah, now I am just working on getting me a car. But more im gonna work on trynna get me a job of some kind. Cause I need money to get a car.. but I kinda need a car to get to the job to get money dX So yeah.. Umm... im cold dX But Im excited.... There was this place at the mall that looked really coolios..umm..its called Zumiez! Ahh! (: Its great, Its main thing is selling accessories for skateboarding and snowboarding :D So yeah.. Um... I dont want to do like fast food as a first job, I'd want to work something like a clothing store or something like that(: Anyways, my day was fairly good..I have a bit of homework though dX I have to make my own cross word puzzle (Prolly online and print it out) and soo yeah :D Pues....Im gonna go now dX So byers(:

Day..

Well it has been a fairly good day for me. I had 3rd lunch today and it was soo fuun!! I really wish a had lunch with all of those people on a regular basis, they are able to brighten up my day soo much ^.^ Um.. "It could get ugly, before it gets beautiful" Gosh <3 Idk why I love this song so much, I think its mostly how his voice sounds with the music. Its called Dont Judge Me by Chris Brown I shall post the song below(: Everyone should really try Spotify...its really coolios, I think its better than Pandora[: Um.. I love music(: And I like really any kind except Rap dX Heck, I even like freakin Blue Grass and Classical dX I like it cause it's not something I hear everyday and its... defiantly its own thing. Very coolios. Hm...Oh! I got excepted in this thing called the senior Beta Club at school, not sure what it is though dX Its not a big deal though cause everyone in my 3rd period class had one and most people in my 4th period had one dX You know... I dont think I have anyone in any of my classes that I have them in more than 2 classes dX Um..

• Lakin in my 1st and 2nd (senior)
• Brian in 2nd and 3rd
• Monica in 2nd and 4th
• Rachel in 3rd and 4th
• Holly in 3rd and 4th 
• Taylor in 3rd and 4th
• Brianna in 3rd and 4th
• Alli in 3rd and 4th
• Alli in 3rd and 4th (Theres 2 Alli's)

Well thats all I can think of really.. I was sittin here and Chris Brown is prolly in my top favorite artists cause I can't really think of a song he has "Theres never a right time to say goodbye" (sorry im listening to that song and felt like adding that dX) ever sung that I dont like dX A lot of them are happy dance songs and if not the his voice goes perfectly with whatever he is singing. Well as I am typing this my internet is down so I may have to post this later than I write it. So.. I shall add the song I was talking about earlier down below(: Everyone smile cause you are beautiful (Jamesiie is still a hottie ;D )

Girl of your life..

Smile, You're Beautiful [:

Oh yes <3

Cute(:

Something I think is really... idk what to call it sweet/cute..is when he pulls you by your belt loops <3

Bored..

Okay.. I am like.. really freakin bored. I have absolutely nothing to do dX Im just sitting here...watching Law&Order: SVU (Special Victims Unit)..annndd... yeah :/ Bored... It's a good thing boredom cant kill or I would have died long ago dX Gahhh!!!! I need someone to talk to -_- Soo yeah...

Funny pics!!

I so just photo bombed my moms picture XD Hahaha :D