Never Getting Back Together..

This is such a catchy song dX

Personal..

Okay, the reason I get so personal on here is because Im not all that worried about someone from like school or something like that finding it dX Only people I would ever really give this web adress to is people I can trust.. well... thought I could trust. And for anyone out there who has read this and cant figure out the whole complete story on why Sergio and I are no longer together, I havent posted it because its not just about me, it concerns him as well so Im not going to write about what completely happened >.< 
So yeah... well.. right now I am feeling really alone though... I really feel like crying to someone but I promised myself not to shed any more tears over you, I really want to get over you...I really do.. It's just going to take me a little while. I wish I could just get it over with and not feel an ounce of sadness when I think about you. *sigh* I wanna go somewhere.. and when I say go somewhere, I mean travel like really far away. Either to a different state or to another country or something! Really anywhere but here... that way I cant look around my room and see things that remind me of you. Like how that one time we were talking about how I clean somethings more than others and how somethings have to be a certain way, like the perfumes and lotions on my dresser. Or like how I havent turned my stereo on since we broke up cause its still on a country station cause you didnt like how I listened to the songs that were sooo dumb and that everyone else knew. Or looking in my dresser mirror cause thats what I did sometimes cause I kept looking at myself smile while talking to you and I was thinking about how I couldnt wait to take pictures with you looking in a mirror.. gosh..anyways...I hate that I have to stop and hold back the tears cause I will not cry over you! You no longer have that much power over me. We. Are. Done.........As much as i miss you and even though I want you back more than anything............I wont take you back. Does that make sense? I would kill to have you back but at the same time I dont want you back. Well...I think its that I want you back, just dont want to go through all of that again. I had plans to come be with you, to take my money for a trip with school and run away to be with you. I was going to do it, for you. I was going to drop out and give up everything..for you. You changed the world how I saw it... I see it way different now. Dont trust anyone no matter how much it seems like you can. Thanks to you, I dont think I could really fall for someone like I fell for you. Cause...I fell for you and didnt have a clue what you looked like. I didnt see a picture of you until about a week or so after we started going out. Thats how I knew I was falling for the real you. Well...at least the things you told me.. and I believe you told me the truth. Gosh...anyways... thats all Im gonna write for now. I might write more later, probably not though. I guess since I only have a little more than 30 mins until the ball drops for 2013 Ill stay up and watch it. Well goodnight everyone, and Happy New Years Eve.....have a great one.....

~Whitney~

P.S~ ..............

Alone >.<

Well...this is just great... feeling alone and being alone on New Years Eve </3 Well Happy New Years everyone...I hope 2013 brings you many happy memories and laughs and is also better than 2012 was.
Gahh....my toe is asleep >.< I think I might go to bed soon and just skip watching the ball drop..pathetic right? Oh well..Its not like I have anything else to do dX So...possibly goodnight everyone....

~Whitney~

Two New Things! :D

Okay.. well I have two things to write about...well one to write about and the other thing is picutres dX Anyways, I got my belly button pierced!! Seeeee....

Soo yeah.. it honestly didnt hurt as much as I thought it would. I didnt even hardly jump :O But, I did make some of my weird facial expressions haha (: So...umm..yeahh... After that we walked around for a while. I do believe my next thing will either be a tatto of a panda on my ankle area or a tongue piercing d: One thing I dont like about piercings is that once you get one, you want more dX 

Okay, then the other thing was the converse I got for Christmas(: I made them online and they are absolutely freaking amazing! :D So yaayyy :D Anyways, Im gonna go. Ive suddenly not felt good and really sleepy now dX Its crazy early for me to be sleeping dX Its gonna suck for when school starts back >.< Well, heres the pics of my shoes! (^_^) Byers

~Whitney~

P.S~ This is one shoe, it has a different design on each side dX

James the Hugging Drummer

Okay everyone, heres another video! You peoples should check him out, he's incredible! :D Also, AFTER you watch both of James' videos (link to the first one is on the other James post), you should check out the band Chevelle..they are really good as well (:
Well just watched watched his other video and of course it was great[: Here's the link:

James, The Amazing(:

Okay well just click that to get another great video(: If he finishes and likes the other song he did then I will add that link to this later as well [: Well thanks anyone and everyone who goes to watch his videos! Oh and subscribe to his channel so you can continue to watch! :D

~Whitney (:



Okay heres the other video(: He's great ^_^

Awesome James(:

James the Hugging Drummer

Okay everyone and anyone who goes on YouTube, you REALLY should go watch and listen to this guy play his drums! He is absolutely amazing! He just uploaded his first video on YouTube and would really appreciate some views and comments to let him know how he did. He says he is going to do even harder songs next (I couldnt even come close to doing anything like that). Anyways, everyone who reads this should defiantly go check him out, tell your friends! :D 

James The Awesome Drummer :D

 Okay just click where it says "James the awesome Drummer" and it will take you to the YouTube video. Thanks everyone :D

~Whitney [:

Need You Now..

Love this song <3
Need You Now by Lady Antebellum (country)


Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time 

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without 

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

Boots

Yay for the boots I got for Christmas(:

Why?

Why did I believe this? Thanks for the memories though... And the 1 letter, ur jacket, and especially Jr... He really is a good listener..

Hiccups..

Gosh >.< I freakin hate hiccups! Especially when I have a headache ahh.. my headaches... they usually turn into migraines. Well the other night was fun. Went to Applebees and we told our waitress that it was mine and my 2 cousins birthday cause we we're triplets! They believed us and we got these free ice cream things haha(: Then after that my cousins and I ran around Toys R Us playing with as many toys as we possibly could :D Haha that was really fun! But the best was when we went to Wal-Mart!! One of my cousins got the mechanical buggy thing that you ride, and every time she backed up she beeped!! Hahahaha it was hilarious! But before she caught up with us, my other cousin and I was semi-stalking these guys there (wasnt for me though, I didnt think they were cute.. Idk why but I dont really find black guys attractive) We were mostly just doing it for the fun of it. Haha I think they knew they were following them cause the way they looked at us as we were leaving.. It was hilarious though. Then we got milkshakes on the way home! Yum (: I got a recee's one ^_^ 

Okay peoples, later I am gonna post a YouTube link to a video. You people should really listen to him drum, I havent heard him yet but I have a feeling he is really good. Soo yeah, anyone who reads this should defiantly check him out, he'll be famous some day ;D 

Well byers everyone!! 

~Whitney :D

P.S~ I didnt realize it but apparently I stopped hiccuping sometime while typing that!!

Thinking..

Hm... I've been thinking about giving it up.. I mean.. why shouldn't I? I'm already 15 and haven't givin it up yet? Its kinda crazy.. the one who I thought was "the rightful owner" screwed me over and so its kinda pointless to go without this now...hmmm.. yeah ill prolly give it up soon....

Lies...

This picture actually made me laugh! Cause that's what I used to believe it was.. but thanks to you, you have proved that to be completely wrong. 

Apparently, its just about making someone fall for you, telling them all these things like "lets wait til we get married" or "Always & Forever" or "I truly need you. Loosing you would be like losing part of me" or "I've fallen in love with you and Im gonna stick by your side til the end. Ill never loose faith in us baby. I have hopes and dreams for our future together" (Looks like there isn't any future now) or "And your right we have an advantage that most people don't get, we are soulmates." haha this is one of my favorites that I now find hilarious "Your the best girlfriend I could ever wish for. I love you my baby girl" or "you can count on me baby" or.. the one that hurt the most.. "I Love You <3" and then after that, you cheat (at the same time getting a new girlfriend while still having you're old one) then breaking up with the girl who would have gave you everything, who would have DIED for you... ripping, tearing, shredding, and breaking her heart more than anyone else ever could....    

Old Posts

I dont like looking at the old post about you.... </3


"Dont cry because its over, smile because it happened"
"Dont regret what you had, because at one point it was exactly what you wanted" (Really, it wasn't for me.
i wanted him to be closer. Maybe if we were closer then you wouldnt have done what you did....but then again.... I guess we'll never know...)

The Pizza Guy..

Omg!! We just had the coolest (and kinda cute ;) ) pizza guy ever!! So after we ordered the pizza, we call back and get him to stop at the store and get them some alcohol!! It was coolios (^_^)

Oh and the pic is my boots!!

New Friends (^_^)

Yay! I made some new friends today at the mall ;) We talked and hung out for a while...so yay ;) Umm...well I finally ate at Chic-Fil-A!!!! It was all yummy (^-^) Annnnd.... yeah... thats really all I have to say.. I am taking this break up SOOO much better than I thought I would. My friend says its cause he gave me a good reason why things should be over and I think she's right :D Right now... I feel kinda free ^_^ I never really felt "on lockdown" before but now that Im single (That felt wierd to say) I feel really free like I can do whatever... hmm... I like it (^_^) I really dont think I'll do anymore long distance relationships.. unless its something like I see him every other weekend or something like that. But defiantly not no almost 3000 miles difference. I think when I turn 18, Ill do my world traveling, open a bar in England for a while, then travel some more, and settle down in like Spain or Ireland (^_^) I already have a travel partner who said he would be more than happy to accompany me, so yay ^-^ At least this way my kids can actually have middle names and names that I like ^_^ Well anyways.. Im gonna go get dressed for the party (^_^) Byers!!

~Whitney NotAnymore Gonzalez~

Comfort Food

Haha im so wierd. Instead of my comfort food being chocolate or ice cream like almost every other girl, mine is fruit! Its soo yummy! Today I got grapes, raspberry's, annnnd strawberries! Yummyness. Also my aunt got a cookie cake but I wasn't in the mood for it >.< You know, I am doing so much better than I thought I would be. I thought I would be like dying.... huh...but nope (^_^) I think a lot of it has to do with my friend John who lives in England. He has honestly been there for me. He was even telling me to fight for that cheating pleb.. since I thought him and I were meant to be he told me not to give up so easily. So yay for someone to actually listen to me (^-^) Um.. Well I had to watch my sick little cousin most of the day, at least he slept for the most part.. so that was good. Im really bored and hyper right now! Ahhh.. what is with me!? It's all your fault you son of a bish, making me so emotional (-.-) Anyways.. I got my FFA hoodie! I might take a picture of it later. Also I got to open a few presents early.. I got....a pair of yoga pants, lime green tank top (It was a set) I got a fuzzy panda pillow pet!!! Annnd Lime Green Fuzzy Boots!! They are awesomes (^_^)Well.. Im happy the world didnt end today! So now I wonder what the new thing is gonna be and how the world is supposedly suppose to end. Looks like we will all have to wait and see. Well I think I am gonna go cause... I just feel like it. Well byers now (^_^) 

~Whitney~



P.S~ Yes you did hurt me more than anyone has. But guess what? Its not anything I cant make it through. I'm gonna be just fine without you in my life. I'll get the satisfaction of knowing that you let go one of the best things that ever happened to you. So good luck finding someone to understand you and love you like I did [:

Sigh....

I really wish I could delete the pictures of you.. but I cant just yet. You're to fresh on my mind </3

Hypocrite...

Wait til you're married.. make sure its with someone you love... learn together with your partner.... yeah thats what you said. It was all BS.. I have hate towards you for making me fall so hard for you and be in so deep. I should have knew better and not have fallen like that until we actually did get to be together. Why couldnt we have worked? Why couldnt you have waited? WHY DIDNT YOU WANT TO BE MINE EVEN WHEN I WAS GONNA GIVE YOU ANOTHER CHANCE? 

Song

I absolutely love this song... especially the parts I have bolded.. its called For The First Time by The Script

She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart,
While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar,
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mad situation,
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard,

She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time,
I've got a new job now on the unemployment line,
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess
Is it god's test?
Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best,

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Saying things we haven't for a while
A while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

[x3]
Oooooo

She's in line at the DOLE*
With her head held high (high)
While I just lost my job but
Didn't lose my pride

But we both know how,
How we're gonna make it work when it hurts,
When you pick yourself up,
You get kicked to the dirt,

Trying to make it work but,
Man these times are hard,

But we're gonna start by,
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,

Doing things we haven't for a while,
A while yeah,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

Ooooo
[x3]

Yeah.....
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Sit talking up all night,
Saying things we haven't for a while,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting, for the first time

ooooo...., yeah for the first time
(ooooo....), oh for the first time,
Yeah for the first time,
(just now got the feeling that we're meeting...
For the first time)

[x4]
Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

{* DOLE is the unemployment line in Ireland}

I thought I went through a lot, with hurting every day and crying to sleep most nights...but I guess it really didnt matter to you after all </3

Somebody Please Help Save Me......

I really need someone. I want someone who doesnt even really know me... just someone there to listen to me. If you have an android phone or an iPhone (including iPods), you should download the app " kik" (its free) and send me a messege. My username is " theuniqueone64 " Someone out there please do this... I just need someone who doesnt really know about me... someone who doesnt care how much I cry to them or tell them about the guy who broke, steped on, and ripped into a thousand pieces my heart. So anyone out there please do this....... if I dont reply tonight its cause I finally cried myself to sleep </3

Not soul mates after all...

You were once my lime green nemo.. the one I went to for all my problems..the one who said he'd be my best friend..the one who said I wouldnt lose him so easily.. the one who said he would fight for us and never give up.. the who said he would make the distance work.. you were the one I gave everything to, told my secrets to, who I gave my journal to so you know how I really felt, who I spent almost an ENTIRE year with, the one who I tryed my hardest to stay up as late as I could to talk to you no matter how sleepy I really was, you were my other half, but mostly.... you WERE mine. I cant believe things are really over. I thought we were really going to last. I thought things would be different for us. I honestly thought...we were soulmates........

I cant brethe. I thought we were gonna last. I thought we were gonna beat the odds. I thought we we're gonna be... Always&Forever.....

Wouldnt it be amazing?

Awww<3 This is incredibly sweet!!  

Feelings..

 Yes<3

Yeah........

Cant Picture It

Idk..

I honestly dont think its a wrong relationship.. I think it just might be a test that I'm not going to be able to pass on my own... I need your help </3

Reasons...

Im honestly starting to forget the reasons why it would... 

I could probably tell you I hate you and call you every cuss word I could possibly think of on here and you wouldnt even know it....

Psht... maybe...

Bf: Make me food? 

Me: No. 

Bf: But im hungry.

Me: Then go make you food.

Bf: But I dont wanna 

Me: Then starve. 

Bf: But baby.. Im hungry.

Me: Go get your other girlfriend to do it!!

So True..

Think of me..

Yes..

Haha this defiantly made my day :D

All the time....

Well..

Alone...

I am feeling really alone right now... :/ Havent heard from my other half all day and its already 8:15pm for me:/ I'm gonna try not to text him at all..I'm going to wait and see if he misses me for a change....

I want..

Yeah..... but for now, the calling and texting will just have to do.




Well today I haven't talked to him. At all. And not since like 7:00 pm yesterday... I'm not gonna text him. I'm just waiting here to see if when he'll miss me. 

Well well well...

Well I really dont have all that much to say. I am ready for Christmas. Hey! After I finish writing my other story I shall post all three on here. They are actually kinda creepy d: I might even post some on wattpad d: And possibly mibba as well, just cause I can lol. Soo yeah. I hope I am getting my customized converse and the phone I have been wanting for a really long time d: So yeah. Well thats all for now. I will actually prolly post the 2 stories I already have done then finish the third. I think I will make a really long one. A few pages at least. Well byers (^_^)

~Whitney [:

More random pics!

Well I took these last night at like 1:30AM :O Soo yeah... d:

Crazy...

I find it crazy how I can be crying and trying to get you to see that I am pissed off at you, but then I hear your voice and I cant help but smile and laugh..sometimes even while trying to be serious. Your voice just puts me in such a great mood. Maybe thats why it kills me so much when I dont get to talk to you when I need to....

Just for you

Lets see...

Okay, I wonder if you can answer all these questions about me:

1) My first name?
2) My middles name?
3) My last name?
4) My relationship status?
5) Favorite Soda?
6) My birthday?
7) Color?
8)Thing to do?
9) Eye Color?
10) Natural Hair Color?
11) Favorite Candy?
12)Nickname?
13)Shoe Size?
14) Favorite Food?
15) Favorite Shape?
16) Something I cant live without?

Un-Perfect

Aww(:

Aww, this is really sweet!

Hmmm...

Remind you of anything....?